The Dog Next Door

So my neighbors have an electrical fence, but one of their dogs always gets through it. While venturing through the neighborhood, she often stops by my basement door, and I just can't help but to let her adorable self in. Sometimes she chills on my couch, particularly on the back cushions. She's too cute! The ironic thing is that they have two beagles, and we have three, so they all play together sometimes. So cute!

Yeah, I'm a creeper... I took pics...

I Can't Wait

I can't wait until I can make funsie posts about random things that happen during the day/night. Don't worry friends. I have 2 more days of real school, then exams, and then I'm freeee! For now, are some silly pictures. I couldn't choose just one!

Photoshoot with the Kelly boys during the snow?

Oh, the joys of babysitting

God is on Point

It's crazy how God speaks to me at the perfect times. Truthfully, I have been bad at quiet times lately, putting everything else ahead of Him, and pushing those to the side. I just decided to open my daily online devotional this morning, and it was just what I needed to hear.

"Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust…"

(Psalm 40:4, NIV)

The lesson was that I need to actively choose to trust the Lord, just like I choose what to wear or what to eat. I also liked this:

And just like the decision to receive salvation, when you choose to trust God, there is a peace that settles on the inside of your heart.

I need this, I'm yearning for this, and I will receive that peace. Praise be to God. From now on, I'm trusting in you and sending all my worries and cares into your hands. I can't do this alone.

Feeling Optimistic

I am feeling ok about next week. I thought it was going to be really crazy (which it will be), but I started on a paper, and I'm feeling production now, so it may not end up being too bad.

Next Week's School Checklist:

ENGL 324 Reading Quiz

ENGL 321 Paper

ENGL 453 Paper

WRLD 203 Group Presentation

Meeting with Education Advisor

Turn in EDUS 301 Research Surveys

ENGL 324 Paper

Read some Keats Poetry and novel England, England

Buy hey, it's the last full week of the semester suckaaas!

I Just Need to get this Out. Viewer's Discretion Advised.

I struggle hard core with failure. Ever since my mom left when I was seven I have been terrified of failing and not pleasing people, scared of rejection. I don't want to give anyone a reason to dislike me or the things I do. I have walked on egg shells my entire life, always pleasing and trying to prevent fights or disappointments.

The truth is, I'm not perfect. I mess up all the time.

My fault lies in how I handle that. What actually may be a minor failure, I make mountainous. I recently prayed to the Lord asking Him why "he let me" fail so bad, there must be a reason for it, right? I then realized that Satan was the one tugging at me the entire day, replaying things in my mind, trying to make me feel embarrassed, insecure, and inadequate because I messed up on a project for the LORD. The truth is, God delights in me ALL THE TIME- in my faults, failures, successes, good times, bad times, and so on. Maybe the big screw up did happen for a reason, I don't know. I think through time I will grow thicker skin. I think He may be teaching me that imperfection is ok. As long as I'm continuously seeking Him, that's all that matters. For now, I'm just trying to get my mind off the past, and focus on His plan.

"The LORD directs the steps of the Godly. He delights in every detail of their lives."

-Psalm 37:23 NLT

No more Negativity!

So I was just browsing through my old posts and I realized that I have been putting you through some negative posts. From now on, I will try to be positive unless it is entirely necessary for me to vent (which may happen, so forgive me).

Goodbye cynicism, hello optimism!

519 Pages of Doom

Here's the book I have to finish by Thursday. Ivanhoe by Sir Walter Scott.. Oh 19th Century British Literature how I love you so...

I'm on page 22...